Caretaker has arranged for a family friend, a genius colorectal surgeon now retired, to come to our place tomorrow (yeah, a house call... she has arranged so many of these for me!). I know he is going to soften me on irrigation. But I am determined to be as stubborn and self-protective as I can, no matter how stupid and self-defeating. If I don't try, there is no chance of failing and being disappointed again, like I have after EVERY procedure so far, right?
If you irrigate, what system do you prefer? I ask because my caretaker is going to set me up with the goodies to do this, no matter how much I stamp my feet to childishly protest. She is always ready for me. Did I mention she saved my life, twice?
