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Posted by fredbilt

Motivated by Angelicamarie. 'smile'.

Hello world.

I can't wax lyrical like many.

After Sue 21/10/18 croaked, died, past, left or whatever your choice of
terminology suits you..


Some here may or may not know, I built her coffin, picked Sue up
from the mortuary then took her to the crem, Sues son and 3 mates
helped to help carry her in and placed Sue on the catafalque.
No service, we had decided long before.

Sues son and we went for a few beers after, about 10am at a pub
who opened for me, Nicola was working for me that day.
Anyway, the day didn't work out my way.

I'd spent all night making Sues coffin look good, I made a stupid
mistake by using a toluene based wax in an enclosed, warm enviroment,
I was found on the steps to my gaff about 1pm later the day of Sues funeral.
It took 3 days before my breathing became ok lol.

Digression ..

Since Sues demise life has been and is crap, the amount of her clothing
et.c paper work, photo's to clear out was a lot but many trips down memory
lane, that was so so hard..

I'm very sure many on here know this, not many talk though, I can understand.

I'm not sure what the future holds for me, at
this point I really don't overly care, but shortly I'm moving to the
east coast of yorkshire and watch the sea while practising building
sandcastles.

Seems like a good place to start to me, a dog maybe.We concluded aliens abducted our
last one, pic.

So, I want to appologise. To some I already have, for maybe being
a bit 'curt' too sharp or grumpy to some and maybe not listening loud
enough.

I've had a low tolerance level for a while, but I still try to
help anyone, even though being nice tends to come back and bite my
ass, too many perceive nice as a weakness.

Often the ignorance of people annoys me, as I'm sure it does many, just a
thank you for taking your time to reply would be nice.

Yap Yap Yadda Yadda

Angelicamarie, in your recent post to me it ended in 'smile'.

I'm not sure how to post pics on here but..

One of my drivers, Nicola, holds down three jobs, inc me, she
is 31yr old single mother of two 8/5yr old lads.

I employed her before Sue left and if anyone has given me a
reason to be here it's Nicola, I so wish she was my daughter.

So before I move I've treated her to flying lessons, I wasn't sure
if she would like it, she loves it.

My point now. Sometimes if you can give someone a chance then why the hell not.

Nicolas Smile was radiant, until she 'departs' she will never
forget this journey in her life.

What price a smile

Best wishes folk

steve

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Comments:
Angelicamarie : Morning Steve, it’s 3:50 am here in ky. Thank you so...much for sharing ! We all have bad days my friend, when one describes friend you fit the real definition. I can’t feel your loss but I know grief and it’s not pretty. I do hope you continue to smile wherever you go. Don’t give up. hang in there!!! Angel Mar 14, 2019
Past Member: Totally agree with what Angel said. Sandcastles and a dog sound like a very good place to start. Things will get better. Mar 14, 2019
Raine061 : You would be amazed at how much better a dog can make you feel. Some days my pups are my purpose and get my butt up and moving. Take care and be strong, you can do this. Mar 19, 2019
fredbilt : Hi, Thank you all. I love the idea of having a dog again, I hope this doesn't sound wrong .. Only when I am me again ish, otherwise in my mind it's unfair on the dog. Raine061 I meet dogs quite often and I agree with what you say, without a doubt I will have a new 'furry' friend before too long. Loving and caring, giving and sharing, unconditionally! Is too often beyond a humans comprehension, sadly. steve Mar 20, 2019
fredbilt : I do no not know why this 'website' (being polite) changes the way I type, maybe I'm a bit thick or can't be 'arsd' to find out Mar 20, 2019
dadnabbit : Hey Steve, How ya doin'? I've not been on the site for awhile, about 6-7 months so I will extend to you belated sympathies for your loss. Friendship is the one thing that really matters in life, and you appear to have all the makings of a stellar friend. I think a pet/pup is a great idea, but I do understand hesitation in taking on a 24 hr./day job. Perhaps there are rescue sites somewhere near you that will allow a "foster" situation where you care for a pet for a short amount of time while they are up for adoption? Also consider adopting an older pet who has lost his family, as they are so lovingly grateful for a new "forever home". They remind us of the real value of contributing to life. I used to be a hospital director for three animal hospitals (veterinarians) and we had such a system available. It allows for shorter term relationships until you are ready for a full time job as a puppy parent?!? And they give you the alternative of being a temporary foster pet parent. Myself, I LOVE dogs, and my Cary has been a GREAT emotional stableizer whenever I have had a rough patch to maneuver. I personally think your plans to move to the coastal scene and building sand castles with the help of furry paws sounds like HEAVEN!!! Steve, you have ALWAYS been kind and considerate with everything that you have contributed to us here on this site, and you deserve the type of friendship that you extend to others. I remember a time in the past when I was frustrated with a scammer who got to me, you were kind and understanding and were a strong contributing factor in helping me to rebuild my trust in strangers. I hope the same consideration is extended to you in your future days. Please always remember that more people do care than don't, and sharing the caring makes the world a better place for everyone, especially our furry friends. Enjoy those sand castles and sea gazing. Peace Nancy Mar 21, 2019
Dunja : Be good to yourself. Breathe, heal, grow & love!Take alll of the time you need. Go by your clock & not others.???????????????? Mar 24, 2019


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