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Posted by Lotstolearn

Hello folks. These last couple days have been full of activity. Home health care nurses have been by to assess,. Got out of the house to get my t3.... What an adventure, and what a garbage system. Insurance really is not an assurance of anything huh? Paying better attention to my ring seal, emptying times, and such things. No blow outs. Hallelujah!

Feeling more confident, and less worthless about everything. Curious how performance determines self worth. I'm looking at the relationship there. Picked up a new mattress cover. 90 freaking dollars!? Wth? But it does the job. Relationships.... So freaking complicated. Staying in the ex fiance's place, she's still got a dude, (for another 3 weeks besides bed gets transferred), but she's talking reconciliation with me..... I'm batshit confused, thought we were working towards something and then found out I'm the side guy, until other dudes leaves, then my turn .... I'm like??? But she "loves me" and I just happened to reenter her life while she was living life. Idk. I think I'm just gonna stay friends and moved on. This shit confused me and hurts my heart. I gotta figure me out before I do anything else. I wasn't really planning to live beyond the first surgery, but I found hope because she was there. I'm glad she was, I lived.

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Jul 14, 2021
Bill : Hello Lotstolearn.
Thanks for the update. It sounds as if you are already getting to grips with the stoma stuff. As for the relationship issues, I have no advice whatsoever on that front but I do hope it works out for you in the long-term.
Best wishes
Jul 14, 2021
Deziner : I'm so sorry you're having “heart” pain. Know it's tough to move on.
Prayer helps me especially when I'm in emotional pain.
Continue putting yourself #1, and freely accept others help.
It's great you're having better experiences with your ostomy. Please keep us ostomates informed; it's encouraging to us too, to know how you're doing.... even when it's not-so-good news.
Sharon ????
Jul 14, 2021
Bagface : Sounds as though you're well on your way! Good luck!
Jul 14, 2021
c57557555 : hange in there good luck on all
Jul 14, 2021
Lotstolearn : This blog stuff is new to me, so bear with if you could. I thought I'd saved the earlier part of this one. Anyways. Idk. I'm busy, I understand completely, and friends is a little easier to work with right now. I'm celibate till I get this ostomy bag off i think. A good excuse anyways. Keeps things at friendship level without cruising lives into the physical where it could get really confusing.
So I'm kinda glad I'm the side dude. Simplifies things.
Another nurse came by today. I was up and using the Walker, offered her water, got some myself, and just kinda talked. She had some good suggestions, encouraged dinner if my food choices, cautioned me about raw fish, (sushi) gawd I love sushi! And was generally bro kind and insightful. I'll see her twice visit me. She was a gentle Lucy of the spirits. Didn't hurt that she was attractive also. Lol! Not being pervy. She was an attractive latina woman with a little wiggle, and big smile. Looked right into my eyes when we spoke. A breath of fresh air twice a week! I'm down. Lol.
I've begun my own relaxation therapies now. I've begun adding time on the back porch to my daily activities. Helps relax and calm me, and I think the minimizing of my anxiety has actually slowed down my bowel. Adding green medicine to my day seems to have decreased my anxiety, increased my self esteem, I don't get the negative self talk so don't increase the anxiety, decreased pain, and have higher tolerance and capacity to hold my temper longer. Treating ppl in general better. Including myself. Plant medicine. It's def a gift.
Thank you so for your comments and understanding. Big ups to everyone here contributing here towards my better life. Simply blessed
Jul 14, 2021
Axl : Good for you , you'll get there, small steps and you'll be fine ..
Jul 15, 2021
Pirrip : dude, don't throw away too quick, you are stronger now, a survivor, and your eyes are open.... good luck bud

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