Hi just an initial hello and my background

As the title says, my first post on this forum.

Rather than go into detail here about whats got me here I thought I'd put it all down in a Blogg, so if you've nothing better to do for half an hour have a look

2011 has been quite a year and mid year I got about as low as it's possible to get, did in fact take a nice big OD of morphine but as you can see it didn't work, thankfully. That being said theres still plenty of nights I go to sleep hopping I wont wake up in the morning. Oh what I'd give for just a couple of hours completely pain free

Still enough rambling on, I'll no doubt talk to you all as the year progresses.

Philip Martin.

Can I just say a big thankyou to all those that have been in touch by email.

I hear you...Never thought about suicide....still think life is worth living.....Hang in there...My life was completely turned around by having an ileostomy which is not reversible...so....I just go with punches....More details as we go along...

Hey Phil.

So very sorry to hear about your pain. I haven't heard, from others, about the kind of pain you are experiencing. There was a posting, "thoughts on suicide", posted earlier. Not sure exactly which category, but see if yu can fine it and peruse it. There are some really good observations posted on the subject.

Good luck man............