I can totally understand that as I still have trouble looking at it when I change it and I am 39. My ostomy nurse had me name it to make it seem like it is a part of me but that didnt help for a very long long time. I am just now able to almost do the whole change myself because it has always been such an ordeal and I had to change it every 2 days.
I had the j-pouch done and it failed but my surgeon refused to disconnect it even though I wasn't able to eat anything without getting sick and I was losing drastic emounts of weight. He kept it in there even when he did disconnect in case I wanted to try it again. NO WAY. So part of the surgery he is going to do is taking the poich out. I say good riddance!!! I am never doing that again. I was on tpn at home at night and everything. It was a total mess.