I really dont know what i am seeking from this post exactly. Just general support I guess so here goes My Story, my fears, and indecision.
Last year on May 26th I was diagnosed with Colon Cancer. I did amazingly well with that. No radiation but did do 6 months of Chemotheraphy. Finsished my last treatment on Feb 8th of this year. I was left with a colostomy bag and at first thought my world had ended. I was scared to death.
Chemo for (me anyway) was a breeze. No bed of roses and of course would have preferrred to not have to. But did and now am glad I did. Chemo (for some anyway like me again) is not the horror story it used to be. But know it can be for some. But that is not why I am posting so let me get back on track here.
When i had my surgery my surgeon told me I could have a reversal done once I finished chemo. I couldn't wait. Now as time went on I thought about nothing more than to how long till I could feel normal again. I was so excited knowing i could have it reversed. It was part of my strength.
Now that day is here and surgery scheduled for less than a month away and I am having doubts. I find myself pondering over the normal questions. Maybe I should just keep the ostomy pouch. I am doing good with it and very few problems. But it does tend to make me self conscious and worried about accidents, if I smell...etc. But I feel good.
Will I be so lucky with a reversal? I dont know. No one does, or what to expect aside from those who have had it. Afterall that is another surgery just when I am feeling normal again and doing so well....
Problems could arise, as with any surgery. Was told by my surgeon might even haqve to have another surgery an iliostomy but he didnt think I would. Then there is the recovery time. so guess I am just needing some stories from some of you and your experiences with it.