How do you know when you've hit YOUR point of needing to take a break from anything medically related that you can?
I know for me I have to get a better handle on aversion to food/rarely having a desire to eat (sometimes cbd works to stimulate an appetite for me but it can be hit/miss or I have to go up in dosage). The food thing is kind of a necessity.
I have my one Dr telling me I need to start new physical therapy now.
I have a test coming up next week that I absolutely hate.
Before my procedure today the anesthesiologist was sitting down talking with me and when he said I had gone through way too much for someone my age well I didn't cry then but I did later.
My ptsd was triggered unexpectedly last week and I know this month and next have more triggers for me (most of my triggers are from medical trauma).
I know I haven't slept in 2 days other than my anesthesia nap today- so I know that influences how I'm feeling.
I went from falling asleep easily to not being able to calm myself and sleep at all.
A few of the things the Dr told me to cut out food/drink wise for now are literally some of the few things I like daily. And I would like to scream or something about it if I had a voice today.
I feel like I'm hitting a wall and am so mentally exhausted from it all.
I'm trying not to say I'm miserable because I have a lot to be thankful for… and a lot to work toward. I've thought about going to visit some friends I haven't seen in a while or something.
If you respond with something super cheerful you may get a side eye from me right now 😉
But really if you've ever gotten to YOUR point what have you done?
~Jodie