Having a permanent Ostomy is a lot to emotionally deal with. You mentioned other issues too. It's hard to carry on with a mountain of hassle and uncertainty on your back. Having an Ostomy is a pain in the ass. Yes, we are thankful to be alive and delivered from sickness and pain. But at a huge cost to our quality of life. In the depths of my despair; when I was DONE! When I couldn't take it anymore....I turned to a Bible Psalm my wife gave me. I am not very religious. But, over the months after leaving the hospital, I've gained faith. This new found faith has helped me deal with my new "normal." A piece of intestine sticking out of my abdomen. Yikes.
Below is the Psalm I was given in the hospital. I read it every morning.
Psalm 18: 6, 16
In my distress I called to the Lord; I cried to my God for help.
From his temple he heard my voice; my cry came before him, into his ears.
He reached down from on high and took hold of me;
He drew me out of deep waters.
Like I mentioned, I'm not very religious. We are still alive. And where there is life, there is hope. Faith helps me maintain that hope.
Take care
Dan