Once again today like every 2 weeks I find myself an hour away from homebase sitting in an oncology chair for little over 4 hours then hooked to baby bottle for home for another 48 hrs....
Now it's not what I expected to be doing with my life BUT as I sit watching the coming and goings of other I reflect....
Hell ya I am still here fighting the good fight, many don't get me but I absolutely refuse to be negetative about this or my stoma or sh@@ bag (if ya like,) this is for me, my family and friends, I'm not ready yet.....this new journey in my life is whats keeping me here!!!!
I am 59 yrs young and was raised a fighter we don't give up it's not in my blood....I survived a heart attack 1yr prior, dealing with type 2 diabetes, have rheumatoid arthritis, I survived ileostomy 8 hr emergency surgery and I am surviving cancer, I know they can't heal me I accept....but control it it's better than the alternative....
My stoma pretty much behaves itself at treatments between treatments and 48hrs duration the chemo and immo hasn't really effect its actions or outputs, most serious side effect I have experienced in my 3 month thus far is occasional nausea not every treatment the odd 1 and worse is not drinking or eating anything cold for the first week after bottle disconnect AND the finger electricity feeling in my hands if I touch anything cold or metal so to help with this I use a pair of insulated rubber gardening gloves when going in the fridge/freezer grocery store etc and cleaning toilet bowel etc.... Its about staying positive, adapt overcome and conquer and taking care of yourself in a ton of ways... Don't be afraid to treat yourself you deserve it!!!!
There are worse out there than me and others better off than me but no 1 is ME, its ok to ride that emotional roller- all of us ride it many times over and over just remember at the end of the ride we are not alone and we fight!!!!! Don't ask WHY me :ask WHY not me!!!!!
Smile on and keep on keeping on, never give up no matter your battle kick its ass!!! #noonewalksalone
your friend Homie with a Stomie
Tracy