Hi all,
Hope everyone is well. Not posted anything for a while but I've been reading other people's blogs. As always, some wonderful stories to read and some very good poetry : )
I have finally had my follow-up appointment with my surgeon after having my ileostomy in July. Anyone who read my previous blog will know I was a bit upset after finding out that if I decide not to have my little friend reversed, I will still need another op.... May make me sound a bit daft, but I hadn't realized and no one had told me. Anyway, had my appointment and have had my options explained to me. I either stay as I am and keep my little friend by my side and just have the last bit of the large bowel removed and have myself a Barbie butt, or I have this bit removed and have a reversal. This would be done in two ops. Now, I don't want one more op, let alone two, and he has fully explained the risks involved in the surgery, the success/failure rate, and how many times I can still expect to end up on the loo.
I think, to be honest, I have made up my mind and I'd rather stay as I am. I realize it's still new to me as it's only been a few months and honestly, sometimes I just break down and cry because I want to be 'normal' again, but personally, I'm not finding it difficult to live with and it hasn't affected what I wear and what I can do as much as I thought it would have.
I got my biopsy result as well when I saw the surgeon and everything came back clear. It was such a relief. I'd have jumped for joy if he hadn't just shoved a camera up me!!
I always have the strangest feeling when I come out of an appointment at the hospital. Even with good news, I feel low afterwards. I guess it's because when you talk about it, it becomes very real. Normally, I don't think about it.
I guess after all my rambling on, I'm curious to know what others have found? I understand that everyone reacts differently to having an ostomy. It takes everyone different amounts of time to adjust and accept. But I'd appreciate any feedback from anyone who's in the situation I'm in now... Do you reverse or not?? It's very confusing.
To top off feeling low, I've just found out my husband has been offered another job. I am so proud of him, but it means he's moving away and at the moment, I'm not in a position to follow. I was watching something on TV the other day and someone said, "The Lord never gives you more than you can handle." Well, if he's listening..... I'm pretty close to my limit!!
I hope everyone out there is feeling well. Much love to you all, and thanks for listening/reading.
Mrs. O xxxx

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