Hey bag buddies,
I thought I'd give an update on my situation. I had my colostomy reversed 12 days ago, and had a protective ileostomy created, with the goal to reverse that in 2 months.
The surgery was more difficult than they anticipated, because they found a lot of large adhesions and damage from the peritonitis i had back in November. They also had to remove my rectum which I hadn't anticipated.
My new ileostomy has been giving me a lot of trouble. I liked her at the start, but we're now sworn enemies! Theres three reasons it's being so problematic: it's retracted so that it's now flush with my skin, it's very close to the stapled wound and that has created a big indentation in my belly so there's no even surface for the wafer to stick to, and I have very very watery output. So basically I'm doomed.
I know this will all get better, and even if it doesn't it's just for another 7 weeks, but it is really affecting my emotional well being at the moment. Last night, after two hours of trying fruitlessly to get a wafer to stick, I began to imagine slamming my head into the sink to knock myself out. Thankfully I didn't act on it, but I don't like to have these dark thoughts.
Anyway, I'll get through this, and really I'm so fortunate that an end is in sight.