Hi Topbird,
I am one week more at 9 weeks. At 8 weeks, I lost all faith and confidence in the surgery (2nd Ileostomy) I just had by a world specialist. I could barely stand or get to my bed upstairs. I was hospitalized for exhaustion soon after I was discharged from surgery. So, I know that I am dealing with a lot. But this week, I have gotten a little stronger. Eating is a little less painful but is still really unpredictable.
I am with you. I am scared a lot of the time. After surgery, depression can really take hold. I am trying to keep in mind how long I was sick before my surgery and to be as patient as I can and compassionate with myself and the pace that my healing is at. This site has been a fantastic source of support. My friends are all super healthy and I don't really have family. My friends are great but a lot of times I feel really alone and lonely with being the only chronically ill and disabled, etc. This site is really great.
The days will get better. They are for me and I would mentally roll my eyes when I'd hear that last week.