ranting

What am I writing? I'm not even sure. I'm trying to find someone to spend quality time with. Man, what a pain in the ass! I don't even use my ass; all show, no go. But a nice show! Had to blow my own horn. Now I'm way off topic. Do I even have a topic? Not sure. I think this is just about rejection more than anything. I had never experienced it before until now. It hurts to be rejected. I have passed on dates because of fear of rejection (colostomy). Some people are ignorant, and I mean ignorant. I won't go with anyone if I don't tell them about it first. Mind you, I haven't been with anyone in 2 years now (frustrating). But I have been surfing the net and chatting. I scare people, or they just don't talk to me once they find out.