LETTER TO MYSELF FOR A NEW YEAR
Today starts a new year, And I enter this year with hope as I did all the years before this. I hope that with a new year comes a new understanding within myself. I am a loner and at times it is very hard to be alone, being alone brings loneliness and I still long for the companionship of a good friend . As for myself I have known true love she was with me for what seemed like only seconds and then she was gone. She was the love of my life in body, heart, mind and soul. Although in the end I drove her away I know that I have felt what most never get the chance to feel in there life and for me that is enough. So living with a ostomy is easy because I endured living with a broken heart. Over the last couple years I have slowly learned she is never coming back and understanding that healed me and although I will never stop loving her I now know we could never be again. So now I seek to understand and find acceptance and that has to start inside myself. I am the person who in a former life I would have never accepted for a partner or maybe for even a friend. So becoming an ostomate has taught me many things that I would have never learned before. There is a Beautiful Lady on here who is unashamed of her ostomy . She wears a bikini at a crowded pool with no thoughts of if other will accept her. I am nowheres near that strong but hope to be someday. Until then I will continue to be a loner but she will be my hope, my inspiration of a new year to come.
Today starts a new year, And I enter this year with hope as I did all the years before this. I hope that with a new year comes a new understanding within myself. I am a loner and at times it is very hard to be alone, being alone brings loneliness and I still long for the companionship of a good friend . As for myself I have known true love she was with me for what seemed like only seconds and then she was gone. She was the love of my life in body, heart, mind and soul. Although in the end I drove her away I know that I have felt what most never get the chance to feel in there life and for me that is enough. So living with a ostomy is easy because I endured living with a broken heart. Over the last couple years I have slowly learned she is never coming back and understanding that healed me and although I will never stop loving her I now know we could never be again. So now I seek to understand and find acceptance and that has to start inside myself. I am the person who in a former life I would have never accepted for a partner or maybe for even a friend. So becoming an ostomate has taught me many things that I would have never learned before. There is a Beautiful Lady on here who is unashamed of her ostomy . She wears a bikini at a crowded pool with no thoughts of if other will accept her. I am nowheres near that strong but hope to be someday. Until then I will continue to be a loner but she will be my hope, my inspiration of a new year to come.
