RESENTMENT

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Bill
Jun 10, 2017 7:33 am
RESENTMENT.

As I muse about resentment
I’m confused about presentment
What was first, the fact or act
or the burst as I react?

Do those daft things I resent
come ‘fore or aft some main event?
Or might the feeling creep about
for the right time to leap out?

When someone’s life just comes amiss
then anyone must resent this.
Am I resenting my body
presenting me my ostomy?

A lot of my resentment then
was got from discontentment when
my colon needed attention
and the surgeon’s intervention.

You could say that the surgeon’s knife
took away my normal life.
And what was sent to me instead
left resentment in my head.

I resent that I was ill
and disenchantment is there still.
The cost to me I always claim
was that the ostomy’s to blame.

But as the years have passed on by.
I have now caste a different eye
on those worst things that got to me
when I first got my ostomy.

I’ve had a chance to contemplate
to glance again and ruminate.
By re-presenting what I feared
my resentment’s disappeared.

B. Withers 2013

Lemonlimeviolet
Jun 14, 2017 4:26 am
Hello Bill. Your lovely verse resonates with me, I'm thankful to you for posting it and that this talent and kindness of sharing exists at this time. All the best to you.
Posted by: Primeboy

Hi Mike and all. I am not sure how panoramic my perspective really is as my peripheral vision shrinks with each passing year. I can tell you that when I came to this website six years ago I was truly ;impressed by the positive attitudes of so many members, especially the younger folks who refused to let their ostomies define who they were or what they would become. I also came to appreciate that having an ostomy is not the same thing as having a disease. Pardon ;my pun now, but ostomies and cancer don't belong in the same bag. One is a solution, the other is a problem. Celebrating National Ostomy Day ;is also well outside my comfort zone. That's like celebrating National Wheel Chair Day. Come on!

I think there is a ;need for improved ;public awareness of ostomies, but I am not sure how that's best done. There ;remains ;some social stigma attached to our situation, and it's acutely felt among our young. We need to get out of the dark ages on this issue, but not by going 'in your face' to everyone else. I think Bill and NDY are 'spot-on' when it comes to telegraphing the right message to friends and family. People will know how to react when they ;see ;how we accept the cards we were dealt. I also appreciate the contribution some people here are making to this effort through their publications.

On a personal note, my son has been suffering from ulcerative colitis for years just like I did. I am very concerned because people with UC are at a higher risk for colon cancer. Years ago my GI told me to get annual colonoscopies to be on the safe side. I am glad I did because he eventually found pre-cancerous cells which led to several surgeries and my becoming an ostomate. Since then I have always ;conveyed a positive attitude to ;my son about wearing a bag because it has kept me alive to enjoy many more years with my loved ones. I think he got the message. We both go to the same gastroenterologist in NYC and get scoped on the same day. Father and Son moments!

Someone once wrote that our children are the letters we write to the future.

PB

Bill
Jun 14, 2017 5:28 am
Hello Andrea.
Thank you very much for commenting so positively on 'resentment'. I find the sharing of such sentiments with others a lot easier than the process of organising my thoughts on the subject in the first place. Once the verses are written and reflected upon, it often feels as though I should not have let these sentiments take an internal hold in the first place. I tell myself that I should have known better than to allow any of my emotions a free reign, for I know this is a sure way for them to drag me in the direction they seem to want to go, rather than the way that I might choose for myself.
Best wishes
Bill