Hi all! It’s been a while since I have checked in. It’s been a bit crazy for me since Christmas Eve. My father has been in and out of the hospital since then, thankfully he is finally home, A couple of times I wasn’t sure he was going to pull through, but he amazes me with his will and his strength. He is the reason I was able to push through and come to terms with my colostomy rather quickly. Married 60 years when my mother passed away 5 years ago his whole world shattered. He has shown me how to navigate through grief and persevere despite feeling totally helpless and lost.
Grief is a big part of the healing process when we are faced with this new world of having a colostomy. Acknowledging that and letting myself feel it and go through the stages was what helped me realize even though I had lost a part of me, life does indeed go on. For that I am ever grateful. I was angry, confused, hurt, depressed, and hopeless. However, thinking of all that my father has endured these past 5 years, pushed me to grieve, but then move on. This group was also a big part of the healing process for me, the kindness, advice and openness helped so much. Thank you!
As for me now, I am happy to say that I am feeling great, hoping to get back to the gym next week, and I am eating anything I want. So far nothing has given me problems to the point of discomfort. Some things cause rather interesting odors, ha, but I’m used to that now. I am living my life basically how I was prior to having the surgery, I am just not in pain all day long, and that is the best of all.
I do see my surgeon at the end of February to discuss a reversal. I have mixed feelings and I am definitely going to get a second opinion, but that is a while away, So for now, I am just happy to say I’m doing well, life is good, and Spring is coming!! Yahoo.