Ed, there is a good chance you can get a Dilaudid Pump with that kind of pain. They control the amount you get at one time it is pre-measured now days. If you feel you can't take the pain without help then ask your Doctor about the Dilaudid pump, I know the Morphine pump is put inside the skin, the Dilaudid Pump dont have to be. So you can not overdose on it. I am not big into Morphine, for one, I am allergic to it, for two it is what Hospise gives you to also die on and keep you from so much pain when your ready to hit the dust, like if you have Pancreatic Cancer or Liver Cancer etc. When life gets you down, Just sing this song in your Head:
Mama Said There Will Be Days Like This, Days like this my Mama Said. That should do the trick. If that song dont work then sing L is for the way you look at me and O is for the only one I see and V is very very Extraordanary, E is even more than anyone that I adore and Love is all that I can give to you, Love is more than just a game for two, Two in Love can make it, Baby please dont take my heart and break it, Love was made for you and me. Ed Music lives in me and I live in the music, it helps keep my mind off the time, I am waiting it out as I was taught, but I am so close and so nervous, Talk Later Ed, Hope the songs Help, Your Good Friend, Jenny