Thank you, I've taken on board all the good advice I have received on this issue.
I went to visit my stoma nurses, and they are going to measure me for a belt (thingy?) when I come back from my little holiday.
I feel awful that I haven't been for a while. It's not only because I feel I've let my friends down; it's my own self too!
The last time I went was the last bank holiday we had. We weren't taught salsa, though; it was something called the kizomba. It's far too slow for me, and my friend thought the same, thankfully! So, we decided to sit the dance out.
I cannot believe how much of an impact this has had on me!
Before I had my stoma, I would have shrugged my shoulders and not had a moment's thought on the incident. I wouldn't have had all of these negative thoughts about myself and especially about the way others perceive me!
I must admit, I consider myself ugly, not only my facial looks but my entire body. It sounds silly, I know. I have been trying to change my own low opinion of myself. However, when I'm having a 'bad' day, I cannot think of anything nice to say about me! I really do destroy myself, from my looks to all the achievements I have ever encountered, before and after my surgery.
Even though I've written all this, I have been feeling OK about myself recently. I'm still a bit unsure about things, but I'm getting there!! Hopefully, it will not take too long to finally reach my destination! :)
DebsyJ
Jun 11, 2010 10:33 pm