I've noticed in myself a lack of appreciation for the blessings that I live. I shudder at my ostomy instead of celebrating that it is working. For four years, I was in pain and now I am not. Right at the edge of being able to live, I came and now an ostomy and a bit of a tummy that I don't want is really all the trouble I am in. Where is my appreciation for the life that I live? Well, like any positive habit, I speculate feeling appreciation for my continued living is a habit I would do well to develop and practice.
So today I say YAY! I HAVE A HOLE IN MY STOMACH THAT'S ALLOWED ME TO LIVE! I HAVE THE ABILITY TO WATCH MY KIDS GROW UP AND EVEN GRANDKIDS IF I JUST LET THIS CANCER GO AND APPRECIATE THE OSTOMY THAT I NOW HAVE. I CAN IRRIGATE AND FORGET MY OSTOMY FOR HOURS AT A TIME. I CAN SLEEP ON MY STOMACH, I CAN BE NAKED. I CAN TAKE HERBS THAT DEODORIZE MY INSIDES SO PASSING GAS IS IRRELEVANT. I CAN SIT IN COMFORT. I CAN LIVE AND WATCH MY KIDS GROW UP, THIS OSTOMY IS WHY I CAN LIVE AND WATCH MY KIDS GROW UP. THANK YOU TO THIS BODY CHANGE, THANK YOU TO THE MEDICAL COMMUNITY, THANK YOU TO THE FELLOW HUMANS THAT HAVE GOTTEN THEMSELVES AS SIDEWAYS AS I HAVE YET KEEP THRIVING AND SMILING AND LIVING. IT IS GOOD TO BE A MOM AND ONE DAY TO BE A GRANDMOM, I AM OF VALUE JUST AS I AM. THANK YOU MOST OF ALL TO WHAT I CALL GOD, I KNOW YOU KNOW ME AND ARE WITH ME AND THAT IN THE OVERALL OF THINGS ALL THAT I AM EXPERIENCING NOW IS PERFECT AND GOOD WHILE BETTER FOR ME IS COMING STILL IN THIS WORLD.