Finding Strength and Seeking Miracles Through Hardship

You guys are so supportive. God won't let me quit even though I want to a lot of times.

I often wonder why in the world He is making me go through this a second time. Is there something I did wrong the first time?

I know in my heart, 2 ostomies & TPN are not the end of the world, but it sure does feel like it some days.

It's hard to find God in all of this. I keep praying for a miracle.

Hi Janice

I am glad you are feeling a little better in your post. A wise person once said God will only bestow upon you what you can handle. Hang in there; things will get better.


Bobby

Keep on posting, Janice!! And please don't give up. I don't know why you are being tested like this, and sometimes I have trouble believing that God only gives us what we can handle! I just want you to know again and again that we care so very much about you and what you are going through!!

Life can be so very tough at times, for so many reasons... It can all get to be quite maddening... but it will be okay, sweet one.

You say you keep praying for a miracle... you need only to look in the mirror, Janice.  

You are also the miracle for those around you.

Miracles surround you.  You will see one when you peer up at the bright sun... and when you look into the eyes of the little ones around you... the fresh scent of flowers in the air... the sounds of rushing water in the rivers and the dancing leaves that blow across the lawn... and in the words and love of friends... among many other things... but that most special miracle will always be found in the mirror, hun.

~Much love from your Wounded Doe

Hi Janice. I am so touched by the number of responses that you have received concerning your post. It not only tells me that the people here have been blessed by your presence but it also goes to show what care and concern they have for you.
I personally believe we go through our difficult times in life, so that we can be there to help out the next one that goes through theirs. There is a lot of that happening here.
Wounded Doe, what beautiful words you have shared. They have been an encouragement to me also. Thank you.

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Ah Janice, I can see the good in it. We're all carrying the same cross, whether it's any one of the ostomies. And the thing I like about it is there's a lot of us to carry it, so it makes it easier to cope with. I look back and saw how my battle with Crohn's should have destroyed me, but as is my nature, I always thought there was someone who had it worse than me. So chin up, girl, take a big breath and sigh, and soldier on regardless. We're in this together, and together we'll go out. And the miracle is you found this great bunch of folks. Who could ask for more? Be strong and confident that you can do anything you want.

I know it is very hard and you want to quit. I have had both of mine since June and been on TPN for 11 weeks so far. It seems I take 2 steps forward and 3 backwards! I am finally able to eat real food although I am leery about it. Don't trust the shape my insides are in after radiation. I still have cancer cells floating in the vast space that is my pelvic area. They took everything else out so they have free reign! With God's grace, they will only swim around and not connect and form anything; that is my prayer. I know you hate the bags, I hate the bags too, but they don't define who I am. When my boyfriend found out I had to have the BIG operation, he texted me a goodbye note. Easy come, easy go. It did hurt my feelings at the time, but I am glad now. Hang in there, really we are lucky to still be able to laugh and love and walk in the sunshine! Jeanie