Hannah, the way you are thinking isn't irrational.
Unfortunately, fibro has that 'idleness' label - it isn't something that can be officially diagnosed as there isn't a test for it. It is also something that can't be seen - I ride about my village on a scooter, (affectionately known as Harley!), it is the only way I can manage to walk my dogs, go shopping, etc. However, I don't look disabled so to those that do not know me, it looks as though I am being lazy, as I'm a pretty heavy woman too! Less mobility = less likely to be able to do much about it, an ongoing cycle of problems. There are days when I feel not so bad, so I do too much, and there are days when I can barely do anything, feel so dizzy and sick or can't stay awake...
You cannot see fibro, diabetes, pernicious anemia, sleep apnea, a stoma, a hernia (although mine is pretty obvious, in winter with coats on, etc. it isn't!), backache, depression, etc. etc...
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So, either both of us are mad, ('cause I think sort of the same way too about telling others about it), or neither of us are mad - what's the name of your shrink?
Rachel xx