There is a light though!
In August of 2010 I met surgeon who completely took over my care. Noone was to touch me or test anything without her permission. I can't say her name but she was from Saude and my Guardian Angel. She had to perform a couple of minor surgeries from August 2010 to Feb 2011. In Feb.2011 she removed the reconstructed colon and literally hosed out my insides. I am now a permanent illeoscomy person.
Here's where I am as of today.
My stoma no longer has sores all around it and it sticks out about an inch and a half. I weigh 195 lbs and have a nice color to my skin. I have no infections nor fevers. I'm active and have actually came to terms with the bag. I like having it over needing to sit in public bathrooms. I go places I couldn't go before because of that reason. I enjoy more foods now that I couldn't eat before. I smile more. The kids like the fact I don't fart anymore. Was I through some crap over the past 2 years? Yes. Am I alive and happy? More than ever. The only thing is I tire real quick. Am I going to live longer and healthier now? Yes, but they also have to close all the McDonalds. I'm addicted to Big Macs. It does get better after all. I was so scared and begged God to take my life at one point but he said no! I'm glad I'm here and when your at your lowest through all of this remember "It will get better". Good luck to all who are going through the pain right now. I wish you the best and I'm here for any ideas or just to be a person to be a pen pal.