Dear Bloggy,
Today has been an okay day, I think... lol... so far anyway. I work four and a half hours a day, down from nine like I used to. I hope they are not getting sick of me having to be on modified duty. I have been with the company for 11 years, and I have a lot of great friendships with so many of the people there. I always have doctor's notes to cover my ass, so to speak. lol It still worries me, though. I have a lot of anxiety over so many different things.
I am like a man; I tend to overanalyze EVERYTHING and have always been that way. Now it seems that I can't help doing it because of everything I have dealt with. I have HUGE trust issues with the doctors too.
I often wonder if Dr. Malpractice ever thinks about me and what he has done to put me in the position I'm in? Does he regret leaving me there like he did? Does he ever wish he could go back and redo things, not for HIS benefit but for MINE? I highly doubt it. I forgive him, even though he will never ask for my forgiveness, I give it to him anyway. I cannot live my life hate-filled and spending my time and energy hating a person. No matter what they have done to me. I have to forgive as God forgives me.
I hope today is a great day and my pain gets better, and I wish the same thing for each one of my ostomates today.
Bye Bloggy, I have to go to work and serve the Military. lol :)
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Angelica- As usual, you've written another interesting post. February 5th, 2019, was my reversal surgery after having an ileo for 6 months. I'm one of those fortunate success stories. Of course, things are different now, and I still have to be careful about what and how much I eat, as I don't have a colon. At first, I was afraid to leave the house. My biggest fear was having to use a public bathroom and have the toilet not flush! Even now, when I know that I'll be in someone else's home, I won't eat anything beforehand. I read other people's stories and sometimes feel guilty for having had it so easy, not to mention that I have a significant other who is 100 percent supportive. I've gotten so much out of this website and truly feel for those of you who have it so much worse than I. But I feel it necessary to let folks hear about the success stories.
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