This is my first time for many things. Life can throw you many curves; hopefully, I can keep bending with them.
My journey began in Feb. 2010 when I discovered blood in my stool. I waited 7 months and finally got called for a colonoscopy (I called many times to see what was taking so long). In Oct 2010, the surgeon told me I had a tumor in my rectum very low, and was sent for a CT scan that same day. I'm not sure, but I think that he took a biopsy at the time of the colonoscopy. Thanksgiving weekend, I found out the tumor was cancerous but no cancer in other organs (whew). Now the waiting game again as the surgeon wants an MRI done (should be in within 2 weeks); 6 weeks later, after many calls, I got an appointment.
In Jan 2011, I started oral chemo and 28 treatments of radiation to shrink the tumor. After a bit of recovery and more appointments, I had surgery (abdominoperineal bowel resection). I was not prepared for that one. I came out with a permanent colostomy because it was very low and they had to take the muscle. But the cancer is gone. Thank you. I just started getting used to the stoma and all that goes with it when they told me I have to take more chemo (precautionary). As of now, I have one more treatment.
I have been having a bit of problems with my colostomy staying on. I have not gone back to see the ostomy nurse because of the chemo; my output changes, but when I am finished with chemo and feeling better, I am going.
I just wanted to say thank you to all on this site; it has lifted my spirits from time to time, and there is good advice from all.
Thank you!!! Keep up the good work to all.
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Hi Crossley. Ya know, I think it’s all about feelings. I don’t mean the pain feelings which could control everything. I mean the feelings inside our heads, our hearts and even our souls. I mean the feelings of who we are now compared to who we were; how we accept our situation or maybe we don’t. My wife asked how I felt and I said, “like crap”. She asked what hurt and I answered, “Nothing hurts, well, everything hurts, I don’t know, It all sucks.” That was a long time ago. You question if your feelings are normal. How normal is it to relocate your butt hole to your belly where it’s usually in the way of your belt and, you know. But that’s where we are and for lots of us we are so much better off than we were before, physically. Emotionally, psychologically, well, that might be a different story. I believe talk therapy is wonderful if we could find a real empathic or sympathetic listener. So guess what! I found MAO and began “talking” with a keyboard with some of the wisest, kindest most sympathetic and compassionate folks on the planet. Regardless of where we’ve been, lots of folks here have been there and worse places and found their way back healthier and happier. We really do help each other.
Keep “talking”,
Mike
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