How do I learn to live again
when so much has been taken away?
This thought keeps me awake all night
and encompasses most of my day.
I used to be able to do everything,
No task was too much or too hard.
Now I have to psych myself up
To take a walk in my own backyard!
My energy is completely drained!
I feel useless, and lifeless, & tired
I'm of no use to anyone anymore
If I were my boss, I'd be fired!!
What happened to all my stubbornness?
To my will to live and survive?
All my confidence is completely gone
And I hate the fact I'm alive!!
People say not to focus on myself
To focus on God and the heavens
But it's really dang hard not to focus on bags
When they're hanging off me 24-7!
I want to have my old self back!
The happy and positive me!
Although I search, she cannot be found
Think she died after my last surgery!
You're a Siamese twin and your brother, attached at your shoulder, is gay and you are not. And he has a date. But you only have the one asshole.
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A good poem, but there is no going back when your colon is out and no longer a rectum in back!
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Well, Janice... you certainly have talent. It's sometimes easy to feel a "victim" in this situation.
Don't do it. I am a cancer survivor also... 10 years ago, my life was not taken from me... it was given back to me. Much has happened since those dark early days... and I can tell you life is hard... but very good... and worth the struggle. I wish you the strength and courage to overcome these "dark days"...
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