Hi I'm so sorry you're going through this anguish!
you are not alone- Feb 18 I had surgery to have a complete
hysterectomy because I had ovarian cancer- unfortunately, it
went into some of my lymph nodes and a very small portion
of my colon near the sigmoid colon- my Gyno oncologist didnt
want to take a chance with healing even on a small portion
of my colon during the chemo, so I have a temporary
ileostomy until August...I cried for 2 weeks prior to the surgery
for a number of reasons- but the main one was the possibility of
an ileostomy....there was no way to prepare for it - it's such an unnatural
change to become accustomed to... I'm looking as much forward
to the reversal date as I am finishing chemo this summer..
what I'm learning now is there are new "normals" in my life that I'm adjusting to. I'm learning to take things one day at a time and not be too hard on myself.
im glad to be alive- and on a road to empowerment and recovery. Don't try to take it in all too much all at once- just take things one day at a time right now.
i had so many issues with my surgery- some of the cancer went into and affected my ureter so I had a urology surgeon on board as well, to fix that and so I also went home with a temporary Foley catheter for two weeks or so!!! Talk about too much to deal with..
sending you love and light-
be well- Laura