IRJosh--I've been following your posts, and thought I'd voice an opinion. You know what they say about opinions, everybody has one--but they forget about us--we have two!! I really had a hard time accepting what happened to me--medically, removal of my colon was not necessary--just an arrogant error on one surgeon's daily work plate. I resented and hated and cried and swore (oh boy did I swear--the proverbial sailor). I picked fights with a very supportive husband (god love him, he stuck around) and I refused to go out of my house for almost two years. I existed behind locked gates, doors, and windows. When I would finally drive again, it was only to go through the drive-through, even for my groceries!!! Not really much fun and all my own doing. I was fearful and trusted no one, certain that everyone would only hurt me. Then I joined this site, reading almost everything posted. I didn't sleep more than 2 hours every 24 for 18 months. I did not post until fairly recently, but I learned a whole lot about a group of people that I never gave much thought to before. Amazing people who have amazing strength, showing good reasons for continuing to exist in this world, on the path of this very unfair journey we call life. I decided that it sounded like a whole lot more fun to join in rather than exclude myself. I don't do things the way most people do, even here on the site, but I've come to realize that nobody really cares how different you are. Just that you are. And the person that MUST care the most is you, yourself. I looked at your profile (yeah, I got nosy) and I think your pictures are GREAT. Very telling. The one with the smile is absolutely the BEST. See--you do still have it in you.
So you're a cat guy, huh. Myself, I'm a dog person. I was an animal hospital director, so I truly do love all animals. Anyway, I guess the point of this here book is to try hard to help you understand. You will never be happy with what happened to you. You will never get over it. Life sucks and then you die. But you did not die, and so you really must LIVE. Be grateful that you have that choice. Please understand that everyone who comes to this site absolutely understands and feels for you, as others did for them. And every one of us hopes that you recognize your own strength and desire to continue to see just what else life has in store for you. Dream, Wish, Hope,---Live. And remember we are all here for you.
Peace
Nancy