Touching Bliss ....
Heading back from Reno and Ms K calls ....on the phone this time ...speaking would be required ....my belly muscles scrunched with nervous tension. I'm not embarrassed to say that I was a bit of a nervous wreck as the inevitable meeting ...in the Flesh ...loomed.
"So when do we meet ??"...says she to me ....
"...and where ??" she says with a verbal grin . I could visualize the little grin on her face because it probably mirrored my own facial expression at that moment. That nervous little grin we get ....a throwback to our Simian past , a mixture of fear and anticipation .
I was silent ...not knowing what to say or when a face to face meeting should take place, would I be ready , would I ever be ready if I did not simply jump in . I live in Ireland so the Ocean water is Very cold . Standing on the rocks and looking at the lovely , clean blue water splashing around me is quite comfy and I could stand there looking at it all day...if the sun shines !! The only way to get into this blue water is to just simply Jump In !!
Stop thinking about it I told myself...Then she spoke again .
"How about tomorrow when you get back ....how about a movie and lunch ?? What kind of food ?? Sushi ?? What movie ? Atomic Blonde ?..... "
This poured ot of Ms K like a stream of consciousness and I just kept repeating...
I was still in the car on the way home . We were roaring down through Donner Pass in the bright hot sunshine, entering California from Nevada , the Hot Rod Charger on the trailer behind us looking like a dangerous Tailgater directly behind my head ...Looming and filling my view every time I turned my head .
The Charger behind and Ms K ahead ...there was no escape now from my anxiety .