Can anyone help me as Iim going crazy with this horrible bag .
Live begged and begged my consultant to reverse my Stoma so many times that now. I've given up the ghost as I'm hitting a brick wall they won't reverse it as all they keep saying my heart won't take. The operation but I don't care if. It won't all I want is rid off this thing for good.
My marriage finished because off it my family won't talk to me jive lost friends over. It I can't do what I used to do .i sit all day in doors don't go out at all I've even ow stopped going to the hospital. For appointments as its a waste off time as all they say is. How's it doing and then ok see you in 3 months and that's it .
Ive now come to the conclusion that nothing can be done just because there scarred. I'll pop my clogs on the table or have a stroke and they don't want to. Take the chance. Well if that's the case I'm better off in my box at least I'll be free off this. Horrible thing I'm tied to .
I wish I'd never agreed to the operation in the first place as I was told 3 months then get it reversed as the consultant was really. Being a total lieing two faced rat but he convinced me it was needed . He also said after the 3 months reversal I'd be able to do as I pleased and eat as I want and carry on. With my life as before .
But now it's been 3 years and I'm still got it. And hundreds off promises that all will be well but. I've not had it good lost 8 stone in weight gone down from 15 stone in weight to 7 stone in weight lost all my teeth , my pancreas has packed up and my gaulbladder has stopped working and my bile duct. Is the same but can't be removed as. My heart won't take the op so I'm left with wasted body part floating in my gut. That don't work plus all I eat. Comes out as food nothing gets broken. Up . I'm on now this will make you laugh I'm on 90. Off 1 tablet a day plus 50 more oter tablets a day making a total off 140 tablets. Over 24 hours can't eat till I've taken 30 Only can eat 3 times a day can't drink till ive taken. 10 tabs. I'm emptying this bag maybe 8 to 10 times a day plus 3 to 5 times during the night .
Im now at my wits end and I really wish I was free off all this nightmare I can't. Build up the strength. To end it I just want peace and freedom and I'm scarred I'll do something that will give me the peace
Im feeling so low and alone I've not been out off my home in a year I get every thing delivered
Take care every one and all the best for Christmas